i feel like going home

i feel like going home..
i miss home..
i miss everyone in msia..
i miss the lifestyle in msia..
.......

demotivated

is d in week 4..
and yet im still not in study mood yet...
and i dunno wat happen to me recently..
i feel super moody and restless...
i feel like punching myself and bang myself on a wall...
im like asking myself everyday wat am i doing rite now???
i hav no direction, no idea wats goin on everyday..and
wats life???
i feel so unsecured...
y do i feel tat??? and i would say i dunno...is juz indescribable...
yea..no doubt is probably coz only left few months and i will be completing my degree studies...
am i worrying bout my future...i think so..i hav no idea wats my nex step after the coming final on nov...
and and and..i realise i seldom involve myself in events tat organised by housing...i dunno y...i juz dun hav the feeling to get to noe new ppl ...omg..i hate my attitude...i should join..and i should get to noe more ppl..if not wats da purpose to come here...takkan juz for the seek of study....and my circle is getting smaller and smaller..oh..i should change rite now...but i really dun feel like mixing around..coz i feel lazy to so called socializing or mingling around....and i feel so disappointed to myself as i attempted to escape myself from knowing ppl..wat happen to me...???? sounds weird...aiks.. i juz wanna keep myself shut up...wanna leave me alone...but...i dunno...one word again..indescribable...
i feel so lost....
terrible hate tis kinda feeling...
pls go away...
sigh...

new day new life new me

today..is a lucky day for me..hahhaha
im so so so happy today..
all the bad things gone ...
firstly, im free from crime
then, im able to claim back the pay from wyd
next, i hav decided on which sub should i choose to make my life easier
finally, i got good news from PWC...
omg..im super excited today..
new sem started..i will enjoy my very final semester to the fullest from now on..
as i only left less than 5 months to complete my very first degree..
enjoy enjoy enjoy..

oh ya ayya...wanna thanks someone for helping me alot when bad things happened to me a week ago..thanks u guys...so appreciate i hav such great frens...
also ..thanks to some frens who make me to be stronger and tougher and smarter and mature..
i hav grown up...
hahahha....
thanks ya!!!!

pass pass pass

las night...i was busy login into uts website for dunno how many times but fail...
it makes me super nervous and i cant sleep well the whole night although i was freaking tired ...my brain kept on thinking the Z and P grades for MDC...
and i dun need alarm to wake me up tis morning...the first thing to do of course is to check my result..haahah..so super genjiong when it was loading..
at last...dang dang dang dang..
i PASS my MDC..no longer meeting tis sub anymore..hahahhah
THANKS MY GOD.....
hahahahhahhhhhhhhhha
super super super relieve and happy..hahahaha..
lalalaalalala....

today, is a good day for me!!!
hahhaha..chao...gotta ready to work for WYD now!!

反省。。反省

我。。。最近到底过得如何？？？
实在太多大大小小事发生了，这都包括了有趣，无趣，搞笑，伤心，快乐，误会。。等等等等。。。太多数不清的事。。。我也不知该从何说起。。只觉得要从新赤赤底底地再了解自己，评估自己，也要从新了解身边的人。
这世上实在太多各种各样的人，真的真的人不可冒像，人性可以变得很温柔，但也可以变得很恐怖，有时当你想把事情搞得妥妥当当，可是这并不是你所想象中那么容易，或者当你想尽办法地去解决某件事，你真真的用意却被你身边的人误会，哇塞，那种感觉实在太恐怖，连我都不知怎么去形容它，总之，我想我得想个办法更加地保护自己，也体会到有时做人也需自私点，或自我中心，可能这样是一种非常有效的自我保护方法吧！可是，如果是这样的话，我会真真过得很开心吗？总是感到对别人有种陌生感或距离感，难听的说就是对人很假。。我不知道，不过也好，这对我来说是个很好地磨练，也让我成长了。

end of my sem..ended as the worst day

end of my 1st sem in sydney today..but there might be an extended sem awaiting for me ..haih
today..mdc was my last paper..the most horrible paper tat i heard from seniors and even lecturers..expected tat it will be a tough paper and i had started to prepare for it weeks ago..i even can considered tat i had memorized almost the whole content of the subject..but once i stepped into the exam hall..and read for the whole paper during the 10mins reading time..the first thing came to my mind was damm it...how am i goin to tell my parents tat the possibility to fail this paper will be quite high??? as i din expect it to be so tough...the style of ques was totally diff style compared wif past year paper..and initially i thought of scoring marks for calculations parts but it ended that i dunno how to do for the onli 2 calculation questions..i was terribly disappointed as i had practiced many times for the calculation parts and yet i dunno wat the ques asked about...for the case study...again..i was sweat that the ques asked was not based on the case study...how could it be??? then wat for case study was given and it was so long to 2 pages and wasting my time reading it but irrelevant wif the ques??? haih... i rmb the feeling after attempting ASR paper 2 sem ago and i felt like crying for that paper..but for tis paper..i hav no feel..i juz giggled when sat in the hall for 3 hours and crapping it but without understanding on wat the ques asking about..the first eva feeling tat my mind was totally blank ....the whole paper is really high standard..its all practical questions..i would say tat...i need working..i need working experience..now i understand eventhough u hav studied the whole book it doesnt mean that u understand the whole sub...
my final year..is really a tough year...is all application subject...
haih....
how...how...how..
i dunno..
totally salute to david brown who set tis paper...
make me open my eyesight..now onli i dare to noe why accounting sub is famous in uts..

final war

my god..time flies..final war coming..
so stress..so regret of not paying attention to the lec and tut for the entire whole semester..was playing the whole sem..hahahhaha...
wondering y cant i concentrate on studies in aussie...
i damm miss subang MC D...
haih..the wonderful night library eva..
but here...no more such nice place..
i damm miss study together with feiests in mc d...
esp vivian..omg..i need your help..without u..feel lonely while studying accounting..haih....
i super miss those time disscussing accounting wif u..
now i hav to depend all on myself..ishh...
alright..for everyone..good luck in your finals...
~~~study period but no study mood~~~

time flies

time flies...
the 5th sem gonna end soon..assigns are almost all due up and final exam gonna arrive..
is time to study and challenge it till the end..
if everything goes smoothly....which means i still left half yr more to enter the corporate world..wow..sounds scary..and worry....
as till now stil hv no idea wat to do for future...no goal is set up..nth to motivate me step forward..should i continue further my studies for master or start working?? where should i work?? wat job suits me??? should i look for accounting jobs or perhaps look for other jobs tats not related to accounting field??? omg..seems like alot of worries come to my mind in sudden...really dun feel like growing up ...i wish i still a teenager..an so called typical innocent teenager who has no worries and can play forever...really superb miss those time and memories during high school and college time ..haih..but things wont remained at the same point ....i muz move forward n forward....
these things sudden came into my mind...so frustrating but dunno wat am i frust bout...emo??? dunno..nobody can ans me..coz i cant even ans myself...really demotivated...aiks...wat happen to me?????????
really hav no idea wat am i doing everyday..
go attend lec, tutorial, eat, play, sleep, and when there is assign or hw to hand in...i would juz do it..is tat onli my life?? i would say a typical boring life...i need challenges...i need smth to change my lifestyles...feel so useless sometimes..im not energetic anymore..im not active anymore..im......
sigh~~~~~

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im super duper FRUSTRATED!!!!!

bullshitting is our business

sometimes..decisions are hardly make...y y y ??

is the matter yes or no..

or go or not goin..

we hav to use couple of hours to think and think and think..

and at last still cant decide whether yes or no..

another issue..

i realize tat blow water is our common activity...

we love blow water...from past to present to future...from white to yellow to black issues..and we can bullshitting non stop ...

but is super duper fun indeed....hahaha

i enjoy it much..

tat's life...im enjoying the life...life shorts..play more..who often say it?? dunno..haha

oh no..crapping for nothing..

hey gals..im fucking happy...hahahha..esp when blowing water wif u u u u ..who r u????? u r sweezyee, wuei yunn, joan, and yunyi....

wondering when is our next fucking blowing water session in messenger?? love u gals..

=)

recently me

oh...seems like my blog is covered wif dust..

hahahaa

here r some updates..

first of all..

thanks to my kawan -kawan for celebrating my first eva 21st birthday. .really hav a wonderful birthday tis yr..cause it happened in SYDNEY....in oversea..not malaysia.. .=)

and i would like to say bout my kawan-kawan..they are all from msia..and from taylors as well..but some of us are juz so called hi-bye frenz and some of us even seen each other b4 but din attempt get to noe each other..haha..here is the fade..now we are the kaki in sydney..we rely upon each others....we study, play, travel, eat and gossip almost every min..hahaa ...juz tat we dun sleep together...tats us....WE WE WE...again..thanks u guys !!=)

late evening view of Bondi Beach..

Deep Fried MARS Bar..yummy

Kelly's Bar and Grill

Ribs....the best meal i hav eaten in Sydney =P

ME ME ME..surprise Birthday Brownies...=P..*winks* *winks*


on my big day..around 12 while i was still in my dream..

here they are...my kaki.. in BULGA 101

Thanks again!!!

birthday present from my baby..love it so much...hahaha...=)

my adult key from my buddies in ipoh + vivian + joe..thanks thanks..=)

end of my 20th and step into 21st...

secondly..the fried rice looks great rite??yea..im sure it is...haha..is cooked by ME...yes..is ME ME ME..
is really taste good..no doubt...i cook myself nowadays..mayb one day i will expert in cooking..hahaa..actually cooking is not as hard as wat i thought..is easy and fun indeed..

But when im lazy to cook and lazy to walk out of my room...tis is wat i eat once im in hunger..go try it..crackers + ham..super duper nice..=)

tats all...haha..juz wanna crap as im gonna die of bored due to studying whole day for my mid term paper ...but actually i was dreaming the whole day..and i hav completed 1 lec only so far today..damm it..took me nearly 2 hours to understand 1 tutorial ques..really wth..
alright..is time to continue my revision..chao..
=(

i wish i were in...

sometimes im thinking tat am i able to take it easily?? or stop thinking of it? or juz let it go? or do i still mind of not being??
still feeling dissappointed but im speechless about it...
but..wat to do..
when u are eager for something or aiming for smth and hoping to do it or achieve it..there u cant make it easily due to some of reasons..and u cant expect wat will happen in future..as there are more and more challenges awaiting for u to go thru..
tis is so called LIFE...
sometimes really envy sometimes really jeolous..
im a human....i do really hope not to bother not to care and be more open minded..but sometimes really hardly to make it... hate myself much once i came to such situation...its really emotional but wat to do...i hav to train up my so called EQ..
sigh...
i do really wish to find someone to share wif..and yet..nope..
sudden miss of my family..miss being pampered at home...
miss being the boss in da home..
aiks...
=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

im...

a few hours ago...
i was pretty DOWN DOWN DOWN..
even though the party was really good..but i dun really enjoy it
.......
a few hours later...
im feeling better after visiting mc d for few hours..
thanks to my frenz who blowing water wif me at mc d..
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Thanks ya for this 'small' MUG...everyone praise it!!=)

well..my storage to prevent me from starvation!! =P

(All are made in Australia)

10Litres of H2O..thanks ho swee dee treat it as dumpbell...=)

Tower Building of UTS...the main building..

a small small part in the building

Guai lou and guai mui enjoying party in UTS

KRISPY KREME..finally hav a try on it!!=)

dannn nannng...

closer look!!!...will try on other taste nex time..

krispy creme..honestly speaking..abit dissappointed..mayb too high expectation on it!!!

anyway..i prefer J CO donutz..miss j co..

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see..how big is the size of tis orange juice..

SURPRISE!!!...it is really BIG...even smaller than those coffee cup..my gosh..costs me AUD1.95..convert to RM will be around RM6 for it..i swear im not gonna order it anymore!!

sad...

sad sad sad
y y y
am i really look like china gal??
y its like foreigner would say tat: hi, are u from china???
how sad im..
im proud to be malaysian chinese...but not chinese from china...
aiks.....
how come???
wondering y..............
sigh...

SKYPE phone

hav u guys heard of SKYPE phone b4?
skype ..yea..we do heard alot...but how bout mobile phone named SKYPE???
hehee..guesss not many ppl noe bout it...
anyway..here im gonna intro to u alll...
and it is only available in a few countries....
although its appearance abit look like toy phone..
in fact...the specification is quite ok..
i hav to pay only 29AUD every month for it..
oh ya..its a 3G phone...
then i hav free 4000 skype phone to phone or 10000 chat to chat...
so u guys..can skype me 24/7..haha..if im still awake..
here is da phone:

MY NAME???

about my name...
izzit really funny tat my name is WAN WEI????
im wondering y almost all da ghosts will laugh at me once i intro myself by telling them my name is WAN WEI....
their first reaction will be STUNT for 1 sec and laugh...
and is not the onli person who hav tat response..but quite a number..
y ...y...
because WAN WEI = ONE WAY???
aiyayaa...its not my fault who named as one way...
so..now ..i will juz intro myself as WEND...
yea...

ghost: Hello

wend: Hi

ghost: wats your name??

wend: oh..WEND

ghost: when????

wend: juz call me WEND...

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SYDNEY LIFE

wow..is been some ages i din update my blog since i reach sydney the first day on 17th feb.....

welll....the first impression to me is..the airport..honestly speaking..im quite worry bout the custom at sydney airport as wat my frenz mentioned tat everything hav to declare and they will check our luggage thoroughly...but once my first step on the airport...haha..coz it was crowded wif ppl..and the custom is busy checking other ppl stuff..so we were damm lucky to escaped from it...and reached the arrival hall safely...then...the nex feeling is i dun feel like entering a western country..in fact..is like klia..haha..y say so..coz there are lotsa asians around ...and i heard diff language..haha..but the food at airport there..really scare me away from eating it..first..the food court are mostly all burgers ..with diff brand..can u imagine all flour surrounding u?? then the nex thing is the oriental food ..it costs around 12smth AUD for onli mayb 2 chioces of vege wif rice..walao..12smth means RM36...and i dun think it is tasty..and i start worrying of how am i goin to survive wif such expensive food...alright..not to think so much..mayb coz of the food in airport is abit expensive..lets forget bout tat

well..so about sydney...i thought i cant adopt to the new environment ..and yet..i found it quite a diff life compared wif subang life..i really experiencing new life here....everything here is totally new to me...the culture, the people, the food here is really diff..i really feel like wanna to noe more bout them..the western culture here..partying all da time..the people here....wat i mean is those 'ghosts', is not all as friendly as i thought, however...i still get to noe many ghosts and ppl from other countries like korean, taiwan, india and japan...and the uni life here..is really a uni life...unlike life in taylor..haha...i like the campus, although it is terribly big..the lecture hall is damm nice...and my accounting sub is taught by 2 lecturers at the same time...wondering how they teach rite??? and uts hav 7 buildings i think if not mistaken...oh ya...here..i hav no car to drive...i hav never walk for so long eva....and my walking distance from my hostel to building 5 will take me around 20 mins...really damm far for me..haha...coz im lazy to walk..

alright...about my hostel...my room is in a very good condition..is better than wat i expected....is much more nicer than subang wan..keke..then i hav 5 flatmates...4 are from australia and 1 from india...the first eva time livin wif ghosts and they like to cook spaghetti..keke..then..at my hostel ground floor...there is a common room..where we residents can go there watch tv, play table tennis, play pool, play chess and there is a study room...and wat i like is a cable tv is installed, it is like astro but hav more channels than astro..and there are some channels are adult channels, haha....so porn and sex shows will be screened up late at 11smth at night..tats the most exciting activity we like to watch late at night..where tis couldnt be done in malaysia...then our housing is so happening...the commitees hav planned events during the orientation weeks...and i hav missed out some..but at least i hav joined some events organised by them...those events are bbq, party, travelling around sydney, and wat i enjoyed the most is hav a walk at bondi beach to coogee beach..althought is damm sunny, hot and exhausted..but we hav spent 4 hours walk from bondi to coogee..such a long long distance..the bondi...is amazing...haven seen such beautiful beach...even it is nicer than redang island...then im able to spot some nude lying on the beach..wow..the scenery..i really find hardly to describe it...marvellous..kekekeke...

bout food here...really damm expensive...even the mc d...the filet-o-fish set here costs around 7 AUD..and the burger size is same as msia wan...can u imagine tat u eating the same burger at aust wif RM21 ....but wat i found is the KFC and HUNGRY JACKS(Burger King) here is much more nicer than msia..and among the fast food..hungry jacks is da cheapest...oh ya..the portion here is damm big...esp kebab..its hardly to finish the food here...so wat we hav done now is we eaten 1 week outside..we decided to cook..and yet we hav ad cook for 4 days..but in these 4 days..we considered vegetarians..haha..no meat at all..wat a healthy lifestyle i hav..

eh..wow..wat a long winded essay i hav written..keke..here are some photos of my room...



more photos and those places tat i hav travelled will be uploaded soon...hehe..lazy to upload now..
see u guys..
do take care everyone..