demotivated

is d in week 4..
and yet im still not in study mood yet...
and i dunno wat happen to me recently..
i feel super moody and restless...
i feel like punching myself and bang myself on a wall...
im like asking myself everyday wat am i doing rite now???
i hav no direction, no idea wats goin on everyday..and
wats life???
i feel so unsecured...
y do i feel tat??? and i would say i dunno...is juz indescribable...
yea..no doubt is probably coz only left few months and i will be completing my degree studies...
am i worrying bout my future...i think so..i hav no idea wats my nex step after the coming final on nov...
and and and..i realise i seldom involve myself in events tat organised by housing...i dunno y...i juz dun hav the feeling to get to noe new ppl ...omg..i hate my attitude...i should join..and i should get to noe more ppl..if not wats da purpose to come here...takkan juz for the seek of study....and my circle is getting smaller and smaller..oh..i should change rite now...but i really dun feel like mixing around..coz i feel lazy to so called socializing or mingling around....and i feel so disappointed to myself as i attempted to escape myself from knowing ppl..wat happen to me...???? sounds weird...aiks.. i juz wanna keep myself shut up...wanna leave me alone...but...i dunno...one word again..indescribable...
i feel so lost....
terrible hate tis kinda feeling...
pls go away...
sigh...